Oooooh I Remember

Remember, remember, that day in September ..?

Uhm .. sorry I actually dont

But my mom was born in September.

I believe the 22nd and

Im more than sure that's a day my grandmother will never forget

BUT as for me I remember more than September ..

I remember past the years 2010, 2009, 2008

I remember those days of no hate ...

Days of my innocence and countless ignorance

Way before these days of my great intelligence

Those days when learning new words helped you form a sentence and say things like

Bill. likes. when. his. mom. cooks. ...

or

My. teacher. makes. me. write. sentences. over. and. over. for. homework.

Before words could touch your heart and make you feel things ..

things you couldnt comprehend ..

I remember when the words I love you only came from Grandma and they gave me assurance

Before they ever came out of his mouth and made me drop my pants ..

I remember when

Roses are red

Violets are blue

Sugar is sweet

and so are you

was the only thing i could recall as a poem and Id make my own little haikus while looking at things in the refrigerator

When red and blue were just colors ...

Colors i knew couldnt go together because Mami always said they dont look right

Before they made the street corner unsafe and before my friends faces would get slashed for wearing a color that represented blood ..

But i thought it represented roses ... ?

Who woulda thought blue represented death? ..

So Im guessin roses and violets are enemies .. and now Im lookin at that poem in a whole new light ..

But I remember when I was lied to about death ..

When my fish went to sleep forever .. and then he woke up a whole new fish in a whole new tank.

Before it meant my heart would break, before it could create a pain so impenetrable

That it could make me lose my faith

Before it meant I would never see my grandmother again

That her voice should have been recorded so that I could hear the words I love you again

Before it meant my grandmother would become a memory instilled sooo deep in my heart that I would lose countless nights of sleep

Wishing I was closer to death ..

But I remember life ..

Life when it was good .. when it only included Power Ranger watches and easy bake ovens .. and a toy sewing machine that I was never allowed to play with because I could cut myself

Life

Before it meant my credit would determine my future

Before my health would determine the growth of my family and

before I realized .. one day this all could end

In just death ...

What do you remember?